Graduated.. and life goes on...

Yup here i am... jobless... just married... thinking about the past... Reading previous post that i wrote... oh how time flies...haha...

Medical school was one heck of a ride... and now there are stories that even if u graduated as a doctor ,u might not have a job later... huh... but i dont want to be typical people and start blaming... me, i had matured a bit and kinda take things a bit calmer..

well i do have to be more patient... i need too ... i have to understand a lot about my wife...i was kinda selfish before, but she had taught me how love is about giving what u have to the person u love... :D

felt like writing again... i do have ample time though...

i kinda have an empty mind now.. my writing is getting worst...

well lets see what will i write after this

the slower me

im getting slower in writing... my vocabulary has not been updated for 3 years i think...

most of it is because i only read medical books.... not even the newspapers... damn...

a proffesor of mine told us that its wajib for u right now to stdy very damn hard and and achieve the best of us to become a good doctor and help people...

truth to be told, thats the same old spirit that i carry throughout my learning... by i learned that its not that pragmatic at times...

we can be ambitious... or at least try to be one.... but there is always  a reality to set in...

i love to talk to strangers... know their life...

i love making them happy and being there for them to express their feelings....

litsening is my best capabilities... advising may be some of it... most of the tyme i will always just litsen....

if i would one to express sumthing , i would say i am very afraid now....

ALLAH lama x uji diri ini... im very afraid that i dugaan akan dtg unexpectedly.....

ALLAH had given me everything .... and im still x bersyukur

off people

Being a medical student is really a life changing experience...

the best part is we are able to meet a lot of people... and in this instance , actually we learn a lot... trully a lot more than what we expected....

previously, i read an article about a doctor who quits his job and sell radio... at that time, some 8 years ago... i said, " what a stupid guy "... but he said in his last sentence, " i become a better businessman after i become a doctor" which i dont understand at all....

and yeay , i finally understand what he meant..

and truthfully i cannot even describe it in words... as it takes time to understand..


throughout my clinical years , many patients had taught me about life.... about how difficult life is... how it can be unpredictable and unforgiving...

ive met rape victims , HIV infected women who got the infection from her husband , ive met a guy who wants to commit suicide, and ive met a mother who had a cerebral palsy child.....

i love talking to them... it shows u how different people thinks and how the world is what actually...

my father always told me that i live in a golden cage.... and i agree with him...

and im more mature that what i am previously... but hey , old habbits are harder to ignore...

continuity~

its has been very long since the last time i wrote here...

to give reasons that is not even valid is that im to0 busy worrying about exam and how my life turns out...

as a regular person... i do face the same regular problems as u guys do...

but that is just how life works.... one day u are happy, and one day the opposite happens...

hahaha, just to laugh about me is that just a couple months ago, a turn around point occurred to me... which is a very big burden... but then, if u want to live a happy life u must be "testes".. right??

hehe... ok im gettin board writing... when i have the mood i will continue.. :p

as a medical student let us prevent HPV by taking the vaccination~ :)
(female only please~)

is smilling enough is worth the money???

an abandon kawasaki zzr 1994....

it was left unattended for 2 years and how many months outside the house...

then after people move out from the house, it was stored insight the house....

then one day , it had its chance to re live again.... hahaha... it was brought to a mecanic where its owner is also helping in starting him up all again...

heres the payment for the bike to run on the road with safety and all...

ok: normal service.... include max oil , oil filter , karburator service, oil coolant , change of brake pad and brake setting ,new brake cabel, new plate ,new bulb , starter service , new battery, brake fluid all and all = RM545

torn out clutch cabel : RM 50

new bulb again : RM 2

new kawasaki zzr original tank : rm 800 ( original price was 1400 but had to search very hard... alhamdulillah manage it)

change another oil : use shell this time because its better... semi senthethic : RM 50

change front tyre : RM 105

change back tyre : RM 175

radiator service, timing check, thermostat cleaned and check at kawasaki cntre : RM 40

insurance bought : RM 477

road tax : RM50

puspakom service : RM 20

new horn : RM15

alhamdulillah the bike is 90% perfect

things need to consider

: new thermostat, thermostat sensor , radiator flush... RM 330- 400 ( not worth the money, original stuff is very2 expensive but the bike still can run... only temperature cannot be read... but water pump is still functioning and direct current to check all the stuff is well function...undiagnosed... T_T the guy still dont know the reason it is not functioning....

even after 17 years the starter relay is still as new... very impress with japanese...

sum of money spend for a smile in the face is : RM 2329.....

value of the 2nd hand bike : rm 5500

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but it tells u the different between passion and normal stuff....

alhamdulillah the bike is running~ yeay~~~~

im very grateful~

most people fight for power...

i fight for the rights of my people....

most people fight because of they think there are being oppressed by the goverment...

i said the govermnt is damn full of corruption... but the corruption is done by individuals and these individuals should be sent to justice.... a change in the goverment will lead to the downfall of my people... i couldnt allowed that... i will not allow that....

DAP and keadilan will take advantage of my people... till death , i will fight for them...

oh malays, how could u be so stupid....

willing to sacrifice ur own race for the sake of power....

im not saying we should be racist, but damn trust me, every race will work very hard to protect what is their right.... and so should we..

and people who sokong bersih~ please read more~ and think of what u will do.... and are supporting blindly...

bersih~

i think the goverment should allow the rally to go on....

all they want is a clean election... thats what they thought they want... but then again, they should know whos the people behind bersih... the top guns....

i think 80% of the people who will go to that rally dont event know whos running the thing.... and whats their agenda, i mean the people whos running it.... they join in blindly...

i know the goverments are making allegation about the rally.... maybe its true... maybe its not.... i know some is true.. how i know??? read and read and read.....

its good to be neutral... and u can judge by urself.... read about opposition and read about the goverments....

its quiet funny though, this intelligent people from the opposition keep saying utusan is spreading false news and sebarkan fitnah and things....

but then again, when u read harakah... its the same thing... hahahaha~~ adeih, but then again, their theology is based on islam... but they themselves are not bond to it....

read more, not just newspapers... but dont read flyers made by people... its bullshit...

previously their mission is to make malaysia a muslim country.... but then again they join PKR.... and karpal singh said " over my dead body " if u want to make malaysia a muslim country once they are in power.... and yet they still coorperate with pkr... which i was confused... they are willing to sacrifice their theolgy to get power..... which is wrong...

DAP are getting all the benefit after joining pas... and pas get nothin... cant u see mr intelligent... u are sacrificing everything for power which u wouldnt get.... only others will benefit.... once a time where umno wants to colloberate with pas.... why didnt u take their offer....????

we need to strengthen malay and not weakens it... what perkasa said is true..... and 99% of malay is muslim if u still follow ur theology....

and now u change ur theology which is divine to negare berkebajikan..... hahaha... and that is the concept the goverment has been running since the first election....

then, u are no different from them, and the ongoing goverment are more competent than u....

logically~

and yeah , i think the rally should go on if they stick with what they said.... because the work of the opposition is to tumble down the goverment... but im very angry when some stupid malays are willing to sacrifice hak org melayu dan duet org melayu dan kedaulatan org melayu for power..... thats just stupid.... org kite sendiri pun x maju semua lagi...

and please read how karpal singh has won to influnce pas.... they are in power of pas... adeih...

the rally should go on if they wanted only a clean election..... but then again, please think of their true agenda.... but if its only for a clean election, then its ok.... :))