Our reminder.....

how many times were u thinking about dying????.....

those were the words that we should really be thinking about.....because those were the words i kept hearing everytime i went to hospital to visit someone.....the story almost the same for everyone.....when they were being diagnosed, they were thinking about death....the wires , the equipments, the tension and pale faces..... is it signs of death is coming????

my auntie from my father's side suffer a disease similiar to the story from 1 litre of tears.....it is sort of a muscular diastrophy ....the dr said that the disease is so rare that the chances for us to get it is 1 in 100000 ...she is now paralyzed from neck to bottom...she couldn't do anything except some talking and same facial actions.....she got the disease after giving birth to a twins....yes, after giving birth....she is just 37 years old.....

her husband is strong man...able to accept faith.....i cannot explain how he feels.....but,we can be logical......for someone who u love the most suffer these kind of disease......and the fact that u couldn't do anything to help her...... it must be very painful inside....just watch 1 litre of tears....u can see a geeze how it feels....

i knoe maybe some of u are trying to avoid this inconvinient truth, u were trying to hide from a true fact of life....maybe it could happen to you....u can stop reading this post....i knoe its irritating to look the downside of life....when there are no glitters in it.....but i just want to share....

so her dr recommend her husband to buy a life support machine....i dunno how much it costs...but i must be expensive when ur talking bout life saving machines...the Dr said that the machine COULD extend her life for 3 months.....could.......3 months.....the dr unintentionally telling him that she is counting her days.....her smile were playing in my mind when my father told me bout this.....as i myself could not do anything but show sympathy.....felt like crying....but i don't blame god...i knoe he is the one who create this feeling for a reason...and he knows what is best for us......YA ALLAH rahmatilah hidup kami.....

then today i visited my other auntie and this time she is from my mother's side....she also suffered a disease which is this ketumbuhan in her fallopian tube if i'm not mistaken....she will be undergoing operation.....so i sat beside her and hear her story......she was very pale the last time i met her....but today,she could afford to laugh and make some jokes....which is good....she kept storying about how her husband is lost when she is in the hospital......she told me that most of the work at home was done by her so her husband doesn't knoe a thing.....sort of.....her husband mengeluh when she is not around......taw pown ssah ble x der isteri....it makes me think of how ALLAH designate the right person for us....because marriage is a pure thing....and love is....nway she also told me to always remember ALLAH as things could happen when we least expecting it.....YA ALLAH rahmatilah hidup kami.....

death is coming....be prapare.....

as ultimately,we can be happy...... (with my cousin)