of thinking of the future....

first and foremost i would like to say " SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA " to all the readers of this blog.... if there's any... :-)

anyway, just after praying solat sunat hari raye , i sat on the couch in my living room pondering around and daydreaming about what's coming out lately... tipical me..... waiting for my sister and my mother to get ready fo us to to grandma's house...

anyway, my father also sat together....

then i played my guitar for a while.... after i got bored 2 minutes later i put down the guitar and baring2....

then , my father said sumthin slowly and with a tone of which u would think he is sad.....
he said " kalo ayah mati esok, awk kne jual salah satu kereta taw irfan "

then i was like should i say yes or should i say no or should i change the topic of death or should i continue with it....

but then i replied " knape kene jual ayah? "

he said that if he died the insurance cannot be claim if anything happens to the car......or the driver...

he continue saying that if he died sell the car within a months time so that it wouldn't be a burden to our family when he's not around.... he asked me which car i would sell?
i said i would sell the accord..... he just smiled when i said that.... but there's a reason why i choose to sell that car.... he reminds me of what to do when he died.....
sell the car, don't sell the house, take the ukm insurance bcause he bought that insurance.....

and some bonds that he bought.... any other insurance companies..... and the land ..... and the money.... and his property...... huh..

but most importantly he said, that i should take care of the family.... help my sister.... take care of mother..... put aside my sellfishness......
always comeback during raye.... no matter how busy i am.... if any of my siblings couldn't make it go and fetch them....

i litsen carefully to everything dat he said....

then i realize that , how quickly time had past.... before this, he never talked about his death.... but somehow i feel happy when he said things like this... because i knew that he is prepared to meet ALLAH.....

i will take care of the family father, i promise....