in the midle of sumthing....

huh....

i dun have the mood to study now....

sory for not updating this blog.....

just now i just finished glazing at my notes for 10 minutes... and i do mean glaze~
Home is the worst place for us to study.... because we couldn't.... maybe for me...

feel like sleeping.... and playing.... huh..... i should grow up....
ok2, i'm almost 20.... haish.....

today i feel ubscured......

i feel like i did not achieve most of the things in life.....
coming back home, i just realize how lonely i am....

the people that i had known had gone somewhere..... in canada, america, australia , indonesia and some other univercities other than UIA....
i feel rindu to hang out with them.....

hehe...
got to move forward then.... i know i have a lot of other friends.... from UIA to be exact... all of them are best gler....

but , hahaha, some people that should be classified as friend is different....

but can u consider sumone as friend if they didn't care anything about u?

i mean they can see u are hurt but he did not say anything to comfort u....

cn u consider sumone as a friend if they don't want to talk to u but u never treat him that way....


cn u consider sumone as a friend if they show monyok faces when they met u but u never treat him that way.....


cn u consider sumone as a friend if they dont give attention to what u are saying although the things that u said is to help him.....


cn u consider sumone as a friend if they cannot sit in a same place with u....

cn u consider sumone as a friend if we ask him sumthing and he only replied with ONE word....


cn u consider sumone as a friend if we try to make a conversation with him to know wether we had done anything wrong but he try to prevent a conversation.....


cn u consider sumone as a friend if we look them very high and respct them very well but he did not show the same thing to u......

i feel paranoid.....
paranoid because i dunno the mistakes that i had done to him....
but the thing is , i dun remember anything that i had done to make him feel discomfort....

i respect him very well..... he is very excellent in his ibadah.... i always wanted to be like him because of his devotion towards islam... but after the things that he had done, my judgement towards him had become otherwise....

did islam teaches its believers to act like this if they hate sumone, but that person to be hate didnt knoe what kind of fault he had done....

didnt islam teaches its believers to nasihat anyone who had done something that makes us dscomfort..... and not to destroy the tie of brotherhood no longer than 3 days.....

i've read the hadith on our HAK to other muslims..... but the thing he'd done has nothin correlated with the hadith....

this is zalim... because i cannot stop thinking about the mistake that i had done that makes him treat me this way.... if i hadn't done any mistake than that's even more zalim....

huh, but i always kept in mind that maybe this is ujian from ALLAH.... maybe its the best for me to be hated by him....

huh, i just wanna to say i'm sory if i ever had done anything to u.... i really wanted to be friend with u.... and not like this......

if this is about envy.... i just wanna to say, it's about u and ALLAH.... nothin more.....

huh, enough about that.... please dun ask me who... it would be backbitting... but i just want ur opinion how to solve this.... but i always pray for it to end...

huh....

ALHAMDULILLAH......

KUANTAN here i come.....

a DR in the process.....